Today, I am exhausted. And I feel defeated. I feel like a horrible teacher today. And I was about to write all about my horrible feelings and vent, but I decided to focus on the positive instead.
Today I want to write about why I teach. And it starts with my students.
Jace - Because you weren't sure if you liked me or English at first, but now you like both (I think)
Dontel - Because a lot of people have given up on you, but you're still trying.
Dakota - Because I taught your nightmare brother last year and you have shown me not to judge a book by it's cover, with your kind and funny spirit.
Abbi - Because you are amazing. And you don't need to hurt yourself to feel better.
Kaleb - Because you kind of smell after football, but you are the happiest kid I know.
Kyler - Because you were worried about your teachers liking you, and I was worried about my students liking me. Turns out, we both like each other.
Trinitee - Because everything about you is kind and good.
Trey - Because you care so much, about your grades and your friends.
Isalei - Because in a classroom full of crazies, you try to calm the storm.
Alix - Because you didn't get mad at me when I had to send you to the office for a dress code violation and I thought it would make you hate me for the rest of the year. Instead, we became friends.
Kennadie - Because you passed out in my class but acted like it was nothing; You amaze me.
Kalli - Because of your unwavering loyalty and affection, and because you can always make me feel better on a day like today.
Christian - Because of your kindness and your smile.
Alex - Because you play trashketball with me and think I'm cool sometimes (just a little)
I teach because of you. I teach because of the students. So even if I am a horrible teacher, at least I know I'm making a difference, even if it's just one life at a time. Right?
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
Teaching, Adulting, and Kids
Today is Tuesday, December 15th. There are only 3 full school days left until the Winter Break.
And I thought the waiting was bad when I was the student! This year we are flying to Arizona to spend Christmas with Devin's family. We will also spend some time down in Mexico on the beaches of Rocky Point. I am very, very excited. I have got about 5 books begging me to read them right now so it will be the perfect time to catch up on them.
Also, I feel like I keep getting senioritis.... adult version. First it was with the new house, now it's with Winter Break. I thought time sped up when you became an adult? Right? Well it does, in fact I cannot believe I am halfway through my first year of teaching. Where did the time go? Yet, at the same time, the waiting just seems to get harder and harder. I have about 50 papers waiting to be graded right now and I'm instead typing during my prep..... oops.
Also, I decided that adulting is hard. Deciding to adult was the best and dumbest choice I ever made. It's really, really, really nice to be on your own, not dependent on anyone but yourself, but it can also be really, really, really hard sometimes.
Like, where the freak did all of these bills come from? And when did backyard fences start to cost over $5000? And what about the stupid washing machine that ate our linoleum floor. Someone else will fix that right? Also, I have to go to work tomorrow? And someone will make dinner if I don't right? WRONG. Okay, maybe Devin will.
I guess this rant is helping me realize the importance of family and friends. And the ability to rely on them. Because life is amazing but it can really suck at times. And they help learn how to adult the right way when it does suck. Speaking of family... Devin and I have a plan to wait to have kids for a few more years.... But recently my mind has been wandering to our future children and how freakin' adorable they will be. I really feel like we have NOTHING stopping us now, except that Devin needs to finish his degree. I'd also like to teach for a minimum of three years before we have kids. I plan to keep working when I have kids but I want to be able to have experience with teaching before I overwhelm myself with kiddos. And, while I want kids ASAP in some instances, in other instances I remember that kids are hard. They are amazing, but hard. Kind of like adulting, ha.
I just want to make sure we're ready. And I know people say "you'll never be ready for kids." But I'm calling Bullsh*t on that one! Three years ago, Devin and I would have been killing ourselves just to make enough money to pay formula. Now, we would be much more comfortable. We could have kids now, and be okay. But I don't want to just be okay. I want to make sure that Devin has his degree so he can be flexible with his future, and I want to make sure I have experience in my teaching field before I take on more things. Is that so bad?
No, no Kyle it's not. Thanks for letting me rant.
And I thought the waiting was bad when I was the student! This year we are flying to Arizona to spend Christmas with Devin's family. We will also spend some time down in Mexico on the beaches of Rocky Point. I am very, very excited. I have got about 5 books begging me to read them right now so it will be the perfect time to catch up on them.
Also, I feel like I keep getting senioritis.... adult version. First it was with the new house, now it's with Winter Break. I thought time sped up when you became an adult? Right? Well it does, in fact I cannot believe I am halfway through my first year of teaching. Where did the time go? Yet, at the same time, the waiting just seems to get harder and harder. I have about 50 papers waiting to be graded right now and I'm instead typing during my prep..... oops.
Also, I decided that adulting is hard. Deciding to adult was the best and dumbest choice I ever made. It's really, really, really nice to be on your own, not dependent on anyone but yourself, but it can also be really, really, really hard sometimes.
Like, where the freak did all of these bills come from? And when did backyard fences start to cost over $5000? And what about the stupid washing machine that ate our linoleum floor. Someone else will fix that right? Also, I have to go to work tomorrow? And someone will make dinner if I don't right? WRONG. Okay, maybe Devin will.
I guess this rant is helping me realize the importance of family and friends. And the ability to rely on them. Because life is amazing but it can really suck at times. And they help learn how to adult the right way when it does suck. Speaking of family... Devin and I have a plan to wait to have kids for a few more years.... But recently my mind has been wandering to our future children and how freakin' adorable they will be. I really feel like we have NOTHING stopping us now, except that Devin needs to finish his degree. I'd also like to teach for a minimum of three years before we have kids. I plan to keep working when I have kids but I want to be able to have experience with teaching before I overwhelm myself with kiddos. And, while I want kids ASAP in some instances, in other instances I remember that kids are hard. They are amazing, but hard. Kind of like adulting, ha.
I just want to make sure we're ready. And I know people say "you'll never be ready for kids." But I'm calling Bullsh*t on that one! Three years ago, Devin and I would have been killing ourselves just to make enough money to pay formula. Now, we would be much more comfortable. We could have kids now, and be okay. But I don't want to just be okay. I want to make sure that Devin has his degree so he can be flexible with his future, and I want to make sure I have experience in my teaching field before I take on more things. Is that so bad?
No, no Kyle it's not. Thanks for letting me rant.
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